Quite depressed yesterday and can’t stop pouring tears last night. But I am much better now. There are something that I can’t change. So….
Manager adjusted time for salary discussion to this afternoon. I have to talked in such nasty mood and with my ruin face and puffy eyes. Why there are always important things to do every time after I cried? Anyway, let’s see how it goes. Hope my salary will go up to my expectation but I doubt so.
Haven’t read much recently. I read History of England in the train for 20 min each way (to and from). But I feel so sleepy that I can’t hold for longer time. Read Two Below Zero at night. It is a book about experience of a couple who spent a year in south polar. Summer seems nice in south polar but winter is terrible. I doubt that if I can survive in such condition. That is why Magie, the wife, were greatly depressed. It tells about a true story of common people, about how they deal with good and bad and how to maintain hope even in a desperate situation. Nothing heroic but true. And it is so funny to read that the penguins are sneaky (stole other couples peddles for their own nest) and some are even worse (damage others’ nest and eggs or constantly engage in flight). It said the penguins take 30 seconds in intercourse and after that they start collecting peddles to build their nest. Skuas are out for fresh penguins eggs and penguins babies. Some are die and some are survived, It is part of nature and we can’t say it is cruel.