It is strange that, I didn’t feel any uncomfortable to go back to work and my usual daily routine. Usually after holiday (no matter short or long), I will feel panic, frustrated, tired, anxious and reluctant to face the reality.
But not this time and I feel pretty much calm and glad to be home. From the past 8 days, I didn’t really think much about my work and my future. I just let my mind flood with the tide of the ocean. I didn’t look at the time and eat when I feel hungry and sleep when I had nothing else to do. At the end of the holiday, I feel that my mind has been clear and suddenly I realise what I should expect.
Since I have planed for my next 5 years, there is no need to worry about what will happen after 5 years. I mentioned to my uncle that I would like to retire not later than 40 and I don’t want my life to be spent in bread earning only. He didn’t understand and he laughed at me that I am lazy. I was not irritated and merely reply, yes I am.
If I can save money for 10-20 years, what reason for me to repeat the some boring work day by day just want to earn more and save more? Why can’t I live according to my standard and free to pursue what I am really interested in? I have doubt before, but all these uncertain feelings are gone. I feel much happy now.
What we think affects what we feel. There are always annoying things happen everyday which can spoiled our moods. But if we change the way we think, the annoying things can be bearable and the unpleasant feeling will disappear quickly.
1, I have made a mistake at work which is not all my fault. But since it cost money, I was blamed by not carefully checking the note. In the past I will be very nervous and became self-blamed. But now I will say sorry, I will be careful, mark down a reminder and continue to work, not resting my thought at this incident. Every one makes mistake, since it can not be reverted, the only thing we can do is being careful in the future. Thinking too much about it won’t help.
2, I took a wrong train in the morning and it caused 30 mins delay of my work. I would be very anxious before but now I just let the company know and then go on with my reading calmly in the train. Since I can’t control the train and can’t fly to the workplace, what I can gain by being impatience?
3, Sometimes my partner will do some stupid things and I will start complaining a bit. But I found out it didn’t help to improved the matter and both of us will feel upset. Now I will just regard these as funny things and think about what he done for me and all his care for me.
Well, I want to be happy and I keen to achieve this.